Tumbled Words

My mind is both racing and standing still. I want to blog, but I have no patience toward writing anything intelligent, amusing, or worthwhile. So, I have written little of any interest or true purpose.

I am not depressed, overly excited, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, irritated, withdrawn, overworked (well, I would be if I would make myself do what I should do).

I have not bothered to write my poetry, or attempted to finish my novel. I glance at a few blogs, but hold back to prevent getting lost in them… for I seem to be an all or nothing person most of the time.

So, that is where I am, on a deserted island on the one hand, very much in the thick of something on the other… yet they are indiscernible for the most part. I have not lost my ability to laugh or cry, to scheme or dream, to help or be helped. My only conclusion - I am normal - for me.

The other part of normal for me is change - with the exception of “keeping things unchanged with Leon”, grin, I don’t mind change. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like all of it, but I love the thought of change. Change, to me, means “not static”.

And though many feel that any change should be for the better — an improvement, I believe that any change has potential for a positive outcome… but don’t bother trying to convince me of that if I am in a mood, backsliding at something, or unhappy with a potential change, I will quickly forget everything I just wrote and act human: you know, that do as I say and not as I do stuff… Being human is great, isn’t it?!

And if any of this gibberish makes sense to you… explain it to me, please, because I write by instinct… and instincts are not always infallible, but they sure are fun to have.

May you all have change in your life — and recognize its worth.

Tags: change, everyday life, instinct, Life Balance

Negative and Positive are contenders in ring number 2 here. Who do you think won the match?

(Pay no mind to Rings 1, 3, and 4 as they are not featured fights, but merely unruly fans stepping on stage.)

Tags: Life Balance

Balance is big issue in our lives right now:

• Leon and our son both walk across precarious roofs almost daily now; I have a hard time watching anyone, don’t like it! Leon’s balance appears good, have not had to suffer through watching our son yet. (Yes, I am a wimp.)
• Hard to balance relaxation against work when you are obsessed with making up for past financial mistakes, but lucky for us, my inner child still forces us to once in a while.
• My careful money accounts balancing has been more haphazard without my money software. Time to reduce the checking balance and buy it again.
• Our good food vs. bad food intake has become too unbalanced, in part, because of
• My lazy vs. not so much has become really unbalanced - only in part because I don’t like our apartment. (Thank goodness for a cleaning frenzy this week.)
• Poetry and blogging vs. other hobbies and cleaning is more balanced this week, but only by my math formula, it merely swung the other way.
• I can still balance on one foot! However, there is a lot more perceptible clenching and un-clenching of leg muscles and toes to pull it off, but no flailing of arms yet. Whew!
• Balance of exercise vs. sitting on my rear has been all askew, too… and no hills to walk up and down to counteract - and I won’t buy the next size up clothes. I refuse. That just allows me to become more unbalanced. Sure is uncomfortable until I get my act together! Treadclimber must enter my life as soon as we move!

Now, balance says I must do something like cleaning now… (Whine whine whine - Oh, he can’t hear me, he is out working. Guess I will stop whining and just do it.)

Have you grown more unbalanced or were you always that way?

Tags: Life Balance