Tumbled Words

My mind is both racing and standing still. I want to blog, but I have no patience toward writing anything intelligent, amusing, or worthwhile. So, I have written little of any interest or true purpose.

I am not depressed, overly excited, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, irritated, withdrawn, overworked (well, I would be if I would make myself do what I should do).

I have not bothered to write my poetry, or attempted to finish my novel. I glance at a few blogs, but hold back to prevent getting lost in them… for I seem to be an all or nothing person most of the time.

So, that is where I am, on a deserted island on the one hand, very much in the thick of something on the other… yet they are indiscernible for the most part. I have not lost my ability to laugh or cry, to scheme or dream, to help or be helped. My only conclusion - I am normal - for me.

The other part of normal for me is change - with the exception of “keeping things unchanged with Leon”, grin, I don’t mind change. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like all of it, but I love the thought of change. Change, to me, means “not static”.

And though many feel that any change should be for the better — an improvement, I believe that any change has potential for a positive outcome… but don’t bother trying to convince me of that if I am in a mood, backsliding at something, or unhappy with a potential change, I will quickly forget everything I just wrote and act human: you know, that do as I say and not as I do stuff… Being human is great, isn’t it?!

And if any of this gibberish makes sense to you… explain it to me, please, because I write by instinct… and instincts are not always infallible, but they sure are fun to have.

May you all have change in your life — and recognize its worth.

Tags: change, everyday life, instinct, Life Balance

Since it is too hot to go to the beach, for me; we have our first trip to the the Bahamas coming up sometime in the midst of hurricane season, should we chose to go; we went to Carrabbas two nights ago because Leon made it home early; we went to his favorite Thai restaurant and got his beloved sushi last night; NASCAR and The ALASKA EXPERIMENT were both on TV today and we didn’t bring our DVD recorder to Florida; we had tea and carrot cake when we probably should have been eating dinner: We decided not to go out to celebrate our anniversary, but just laze around the rest of the evening instead.

We did squeeze in a bit of time earlier today for Leon to take the laundry to the laundromat (I get too sick in there from the heat this time of year, so he does it, got to love him!); we squeezed in time to do floors; we Skyped his sister; I taught him the basics of using his new MacBook and we loading software and his business files, so he can sell his recently purchased PC that he has basically only played games and watched DVDs on.

And now, we are doing what any thirty-four years married couple would do, grin… no, not that at this moment… he is watching a DVD on the new laptop with his headphones on so I don’t have to hear the violence, I am trying to choose between blogging and playing Freecell and Majong Titans and Spider Solitaire on his PC - while we still have it.

We relaxed… vegged out… laughed… teased… and harassed… a good day.

Tags: anniversary, everyday life