Tumbled Words

My mind is both racing and standing still. I want to blog, but I have no patience toward writing anything intelligent, amusing, or worthwhile. So, I have written little of any interest or true purpose.

I am not depressed, overly excited, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, irritated, withdrawn, overworked (well, I would be if I would make myself do what I should do).

I have not bothered to write my poetry, or attempted to finish my novel. I glance at a few blogs, but hold back to prevent getting lost in them… for I seem to be an all or nothing person most of the time.

So, that is where I am, on a deserted island on the one hand, very much in the thick of something on the other… yet they are indiscernible for the most part. I have not lost my ability to laugh or cry, to scheme or dream, to help or be helped. My only conclusion - I am normal - for me.

The other part of normal for me is change - with the exception of “keeping things unchanged with Leon”, grin, I don’t mind change. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like all of it, but I love the thought of change. Change, to me, means “not static”.

And though many feel that any change should be for the better — an improvement, I believe that any change has potential for a positive outcome… but don’t bother trying to convince me of that if I am in a mood, backsliding at something, or unhappy with a potential change, I will quickly forget everything I just wrote and act human: you know, that do as I say and not as I do stuff… Being human is great, isn’t it?!

And if any of this gibberish makes sense to you… explain it to me, please, because I write by instinct… and instincts are not always infallible, but they sure are fun to have.

May you all have change in your life — and recognize its worth.

Tags: change, everyday life, instinct, Life Balance

It’s over. It sucked a lot of money out of our pockets these past ten months. The house is no longer ours. The memories are. And such memories:

A new beginning
Promise of future
Southern girl introduced to Winter joys
Palm trees standing proud against blackened sky gave way to evergreens wearing winter white.
and so on and so on and so on.

Home is where the heart is, right? So, home is in Florida now, but the biggest part of our hearts is still in Western Washington and the Cascades. But that’s OK, they are on our to do list - every to do list, grin.

Tags: home, snow, Western Washington

Now, lest someone think I wished for Florida to get a storm, I did not! I would rather have to work full time in a fast food place (and I am a vegetarian) — even on opposite shifts from Leon — than wish anyone deal with a storm - and I know he agrees, despite being a public insurance adjuster in Florida. He had the “pleasure” of having our former home suffer flood damage during Hurricane Elena in 1985. He was not exactly overjoyed!

One of the reasons I don’t like to live in South Florida vs. Central or Northern Florida - is that you have more opportunities for “might be coming your way” — right up until the last minute. The forecast tracks on this one were fun to look at, most of them going up the middle of the state, one going in the Atlantic and one going right toward the Tampa Bay area… our old stomping grounds.

So, you can bet we will be watching the weather channel(s) on TV, online, and on our phones for the next few days… Just like we never left Florida — just different electronics to track it on.

Hope those in the islands avoid the storm’s wrath.

Tags: Tropical Storm