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Photo of Leon putting screen saver on his at Starbucks.

No line at either place.

Tags: iPhone 3G

(Contract returned and signed. Countdown, inspections, etc. One step closer to selling our house.)

Oh, and the clues… Apple iPhone 3G. Just as soon as we find time to get to it… that may be a while.

Leon tried to back out of “getting” me one, and even though I know his sense of humor, I am still not sure if he was messing with me or not, but he agreed.

But, when you think about it, other than my MacBook, I don’t buy stuff for me, nor does he. Not that we haven’t in the past had a boat, a guitar, spent money on costumes, had a stereo and an aboveground pool and taken rare vacations.

I don’t collect things or have golf clubs or tennis rackets or 60 inch TVs or even an iPod. We don’t have video games or have a boat or two cars or even a stereo anymore. I don’t buy hundreds of pairs of shoes or lots of purses or diamonds or whatever. We don’t spend money on movies or attractions or vacations right now either.

So, this will be my splurge, for him it will be extremely helpful in our business, for me it will be as well, but it will, also, something that will make me grin.

Tags: house sale, iPhone 3G

Somedays nothing surprises me - about you, people I know, or myself. Other days everything surprises me. That alone makes life interesting. Not knowing if the surprise is going to be pleasant or horrible adds yet another dimension.

One non-surprise for me is my withdrawal at times from contact even if I am not depressed or in a bad mood. Fifty-eight years into my life, I expect it and, to a point, embrace it. I know it is, for the most part, more from a need to rejuvenate than to escape. There are times, however, when it attempts to hold me in a not so tender embrace beyond acceptable limits. I feel like this is one of those times.

The irony is this is a time I need to withdraw, if not from contact, at least from certain fun, and fall head on into work, but part of me is fighting it tooth and nail - with no valid reason. If I disliked the work I need to do, I would understand, but I don’t, I actually enjoy it.

My own conclusion is that the stress of other things, thank goodness, not Leon, is bringing my need to withdraw into me, and one sure fire way of withdrawing into me is to ignore work and get lost in the words of others, if not my own. (No, I don’t understand why it works that way for me, nor do I even care. It is what it is.) (I didn’t just say that did I?)

So, I find myself purposely ignoring blog after blog to fight it, peeking occasionally and commenting rarely, not even responding to comments on my own blog… This is my apology, my silence is not a reflection of your writing, of who you are, but of my own need to de-stress so I can go back to being the employee I use to be and blog and read and comment to my heart’s content.

And no, I am not miserable right now, just caught in a loop. I’m making progress at work, and with that will come progress with me!

Those of you who have stuck by me, either in words or in silent reading, thank you! I have noticed.

Tags: withdrawal