Apr 28 2008
Adapting
We either adapt when needed or we don’t, but within those parameters, if we do we may not do it with grace.
Today, I feel totally unwilling to act with grace nor politeness nor even by seeking “Only the Good”. I was still awake at 3:00 a.m. this morning, my mind refusing to cooperate with my body’s need for sleep. My sometimes childlike exuberant personality is balanced quite well by my lack of sleep induced “experienced” two-year-old-like-ability to fall into a tantrum…
I know, very unbecoming a 58 year old woman. But, on the one hand, I am controlling it, I have not yet thrown myself on the floor screaming and kicking, nor found the nearest person to bite. The latter is because he would bite back with a larger mouth and stronger muscles than I (perhaps?), and the former — because we have tile floors and I do value the bones in my head, among others.
I know I am not the only one who gets like this, so save yourself the embarrassment of admitting it on line and just live vicariously through my post. And yes, I will be posting less only because work has increased and I need to redevelop better work habits and blogging distracts me immensely - my posting less will not be because I am throwing a fit somewhere in public. At least no today.
I know, I need a good kick in the rear… but sleep would be just as effective, and less painful.
Photo by Marcia Bogaert.
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One of the *good* side affects of having CFS is that I don’t have any problem with falling asleep. Staying awake on the other hand…
((((((hugs)))))
Well, the universe needs to not use you and I to balance out the sleep ratio, Brian — or rather it needs to change the numbers — I get a few more, you get a few less. I did get 20 minutes just now, sound sleep.
PS. It is a gorgeous day down here — and we didn’t make it out for a walk, sigh. Hugs back!
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It could be worse. You could have sleep apnea like I have and sleep with a mask with air pumping into your nostrils at 7 psi. Try sleeping like that sometime. I never thought I would be able to get used to it. But, after about a year of trying, I finally was able to sleep an entire night. Best of luck to you in your sleeping endeavors.
Don’t envy you that, David, but glad you are sleeping now!!
I use to suffer from Insomnia and now I’m finding it hard to stay awake past 3 am. Try a cup of sleeping time tea.
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